Ce Voyage Doit être Poursuivie

This being the last blog post for my class, I feel like I didn’t say or post everything I thought I would or wanted to. So deciding on what to do for this post was so hard because I’m such an indecisive little being.

I recently binge watched the whole season of that new Netflix original Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and I kind of loved it. It had its dumb moments but all in all it was really funny and cute. If you haven’t heard of it, it’s about this woman who’s been held in a bunker for 15 years by a crazy reverend and has finally been rescued and she moves to New York to start her life.

This show just kind of reminded me of how you have to take the good with the bad and to be fearless about who you are. The world may knock ya down sometimes but you just gotta keep gettin up stronger than before and keep doing your best.

I’m still just in the very beginning of my twenties and I know I won’t have everything together for while, but really does anyone ever have it all together? Wouldn’t that just be boring if we had everything spick and span all the time? Life should be fun, and messy, and full of growing experiences.

I may not know what I want to be or where exactly I want my life to take me, but I know the kind of person I am and the things that are important to me. So this last post I guess is basically just a reflection on this lil experience thus far.

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I really just want people to slow down, take a step back, and ask themselves if they’re doing something that love, pursuing something that they truly want to not because of pressures from anyone else, putting good out in world and caring about the well-being of other people, and realizing what truly matters.

So go out into that great big world my friends and do something good, do something awesome, and something that makes you happy. Oh and enjoy this dog in a cookie monster costume.

Ta Ta!

xoxo

-Maria 🙂

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Thangs Ta Do and Listen To

Alrighty folks some upcoming thangs to do here at NCC is making scarves for the homeless from 10 pm to midnight in WAC on Saturday. And on Sunday there’s the late night pancake breakfast in Kaufman starting at 11pm. Also, it’s St. Patrick’s Day tomorrow! There’ll be a parade in downtown Naperville or you could wander on over to Chicago and go to the parade there!

Those are some possibilities, but what you should really do is go listen to some Travis Garland or Jon Bellion, or Eddie Gomez or maybs some Gav D. (Gavin DeGraw)

Travis Garland had his boyband days, but these days he’s flying solo. He has one of the best voices, omg I’m obsessed. Last year I listened to him literally nonstop and went to one of his shows in Chicago. He’s even better live, no exaggeration. He’s got a kind of R&B/Soul/Pop type vibe and he’s done some pretty amaz covers on his youtube channel. Some of my favorites are “Abby Lee”, “Blue Electric Roses”, “Other People”, and “Let Me Show You”. But I mean really all of them are good, so check him out!

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Then we have Mr. Jon Bellion. This guy is awesome, he wrote the chorus to “The Monster” by Eminem and Rihanna and co-wrote/produced “Trumpets” by Jason Derulo. However, his own music is just as good.On his youtube channel he had some behind the scene type videos of his creative process and you can just tell he is so passionate about music and he puts his heart and soul into. It’s really beautiful to watch. Some of my favorites are Dead Man Walking, Run Wild, Ooh, Human, and A Haunted House. You can download his latest album for free here. It’s so good you really should do it 🙂

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I found out about Eddie Gomez from my sister who had gone to see Travis Garland and she told me about this awesome guy who opened for him named Eddie Gomez. I looked him up and he doesn’t have that many videos on his Youtube but his voice is sooooo good. My favorites are “Lie So Well” and “Monsters”.

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Lastly we have my all time fave my man, Gavin DeGraw. This guy is so underrated his songs are so catchy and the lyrics really get to ya. I think I love pretty much every song he’s ever written. Some of my faves are “Finest Hour”, “Different for Girls”, “We Belong Together”, “Soldier”, and basically every other one.

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And we can’t forget my girl JoJo, she was basically held hostage by her record label for 7 years and couldn’t release anything I don’t really know, but this girl is so cool and can sangggg. I mean who could forget “Too Little Too Late” pretty sure I know every single word to that song. But some other ones I like are “Demonstrate”, “Sister Wife”, and there’s a live version of “John Doe” by B.o.B that she sang on that is really good. You can watch it here.  And I’m pretty sure she has some free mixtapes floatin around out there.

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So check out these artists and hopefully you won’t be disappointed! Til next time!

xoxo

-Maria

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The Third Theory

The third theory from class I connected to my blogging experience is Channel Expansion Theory.

The medium of blogging became richer to me as the weeks went on. Before this assignment, I was a blogless reader and never commented on blogs, but through this assignment I was able to be a blogger and a reader, participating in both aspects of the blogging experience.

Through the blog buddy groups I read other people’s blogs and commented on them and vice versa. I got to see just a little side of all my different classmates that I would have never seen without the reading of their blogs.

The relatability we found in one another’s blogs is something we would not have had outside of the blogging experience because in most college classes people do not really reach out to try to get know each other. Through blogging we were able to connect and relate to each other even if it was in a small way.

Til next time!

xoxo

-Maria

Some People….

Alright, I literally did not get any sleep last night, it’s almost week ten, my paper is unable to upload, I’m already in an annoyed mood when I come across an article on Buzzfeed about some British “tv personality” and her string of offensive tweets regarding Kelly Clarkson’s weight.

I really don’t want to repeat her tweets, they were so just uncalled for and disgustingly rude. And this woman is 40 some years old and she’s acting like this? Like what possesses someone to attack another human being in such a manner? It just really infuriated me that people act like this. Like how does she think that’s ok? What point is she trying to prove? If Kelly Clarkson or anyone for that matter is fat or not what’s it to ya?!

Kelly Clarkson is a talented beautiful woman with an amazing voice, a mother, a wife, a successful person, and so many other things and it really matters that much to people what size she is? It is ludicrous. Kelly responded in such an admirable way when asked about she thought of the tweets.

She didn’t even know about the tweets, shows just how irrelevant this “tv personality” is, she was basically like it’s a free country say whatever you want, I’m awesome I don’t care what anyone thinks about me, and I have an amazing family and that’s what really matters.

How awesome is that? Way to take the high road Kel!

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Also I’d like to comment on the fact that Kim Kardashian’s stupid blonde head causes more of a stir within our generation than actual problems in the world. That’s what the media focuses on and that’s what gets spread around all over the internet, not stuff that actually matters. It’s quite frightening, who the hell cares if she dyed her hair?! Yeah the memes are funny, but come on it doesn’t deserve to be focused and talked about so much. It’s sickening.

Wake up people and get a grip. Don’t be an a**hole for no reason and try not to dumb yourselves down too much, myself included I’m guilty of not seeking out relevant issues, but some things need to change.

Here’s the Buzzfeed article about Kelly if you want to read the actual tweets and Kelly’s actual response!

xoxo

-Maria

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About that Video…

The video I made in my last post was just a lil vid of two of my close friends and their view on turning 20. Maybe it was the questions I asked or lack of questions, but my friends didn’t really seem to feel that different after turning the big 2-0 and said they had to get a little more into their twenties to really notice or feel any different.

Maybe I just think too much, but one of my friends Jenna didn’t seem to concerned with the future or worried about what her twenties would bring. This really surprised me, because I thought they’d have more to say about this topic. My other friend Madi seemed to relate more with trying to have everything together and trying not to think too far in the future. Madi and Jenna are both very laid back people so I’m sure if I asked my other friends their experiences they’d have many different answers.

I really have no idea what I want to do with my life, but one thing Madi said that I know I want; is to be happy. Just to be happy with my life and whatever I’m doing. I guess time will tell.

xoxo

-Maria

Video Time!

We had to make a video relating to our blog, I’m not going to any cool events relating to my topic that I could record so I just decided to ask a couple of my friends about their experience being 20 so far.

I’m not a pro filmmaker or interviewer so this video is nothin special; just some friends talkin about bein 20. (aka me forcing my friends to be in a video for my blog)

So here‘s the link to the video, enjoy!

xoxo

-Maria 🙂

How Lucky I Am to Have Something That Makes Saying Goodbye So Hard

This week we had to share a story that evokes emotion. I was going to try to find a story out there among the millions, but then I thought why not just share a story of mine? This is about my journey right? Hmm so where do I begin…alright I’m the youngest of 4 girls. There’s Elisa, Sarah, Anna, and me. We’re all pretty close but Anna and I have always been super close. Sarah and Elisa are more serious, scholarly (not that they aren’t amazing and fun). Anna and I are the dreamers, the free spirits.

When we were younger of course we’d fight a lot, but secretly I always wanted to be like her. She’s funny, smart, creative, beautiful, and has amazing style. She’s the most influential person in my life, she is the one person who almost completely understood me. I could go to her for anything and vice versa.

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At the Gavin DeGraw concert, me left Anna right. Gav D’s amaz y’all need to listen to like every song he’s ever written

6 months ago my life was changed forever, altered in a way I never saw coming. Anna had been living in Arizona for the past year where her boyfriend attended medical school, she was moving back to Chicago where she really loved to live. She had been home only about a month, about to start a new job the next day, when on the morning of August 12th she never woke up.

She was only 24 years old, her whole life ahead of her, a new chapter beginning, dreams still waiting to be fulfilled, not a warning, no signs; it was like something just came in the night and stole the life right out of her.

She was staying with my cousin in Chicago. My mom and I had drove in the day before to spend the day with them and pick up some furniture. How strange to think less than 24 hours after we left them in the city Anna would be gone.

I was in disbelief/shock when I got the phone call. I thought my dad was kidding, how I wish he was. It was like my whole world was shattered. My sister, my best friend, my go to favorite person in this world was gone forever. I didn’t know what to do. I felt like a zombie. How could I ever possibly be happy again?

She wouldn’t be there to go out with me on my 21st birthday or let alone celebrate my 20th birthday with with me. I entered the most important time of my life without her, when I needed her most. I would never get to be her maid of honor and her mine, Our kids can never be best friends. We won’t be in our 40s reminiscing about our 20s. She will never be older than 24.

It’s true that you never really know how it feels to lose someone so close to you until you experience it. I could describe the pain in every way I know how, but until it hits you because it’s happening to you, you can never truly comprehend it.

In your life I’m sure many of you have lost someone close to you and if you haven’t, one day the inevitable will happen. For me it happened decades before I ever thought it would. It’s changed me forever. After her death nothing seemed to matter anymore; all the stupid little things people got worked up about or complained about all seemed so trivial, so petty.

When you lose someone, the grief never ends you just learn to adjust to the way things are now. Everyday I’m still trying to figure it all out, but one thing I know now is that you have to cherish every moment you have with the people you love. I know we hear things like this all the time but it really is true. Tell the people you love that you love them even if they know it and don’t be stubborn to admit your wrongs and be the first to apologize.

When we left Chicago that day, I didn’t think that would be the last time I would ever talk to or see Anna.  The last thing I said to her was “bye, I love you” but I didn’t think it’d be goodbye forever. All the things I wish I would’ve said or done. But moving forward all I can do is be thankful that I had a person like Anna in my life even if it was for a far shorter time than I would’ve liked.

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I wouldn’t be the person I am today without her. You truly never know the day nor the hour when your time here is over, so don’t worry about those stupid things that seem so important now. In the end they won’t matter. Don’t wait to do the things you want to do, do them now!

Take risks, do things you never thought you would. Live your life to the fullest and find beauty in even the small things. Just stop for a moment take it all in…you’re alive. You have the power to live the life you want to. All your experiences make you the wonderful person you are, no matter how bad things seem never lose hope. Try to learn something from even the worst experiences.

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‘Til next time loves, no matter what you’re going through stay strong ❤

xoxo

-Maria

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It Has Nothing To Do With You

Hmm this blog post has to do with wearing makeup or just looking nice or put together in general. I feel like guys are always like “ooh I like girls better without makeup” and it’s like mmhmm ok whatever. But have you ever thought women wear makeup because they want to for themselves not for anyone else?

Yeah maybe there is pressure society puts on women to look a certain way, but for me I love wearing makeup, it’s a way for me to express myself. I can create a different look everyday depending how I feel or what type of mood I’m in. I must admit, I’m Maria and I have a makeup addiction. I get like a high every time I get to try out new makeup I just bought. It sounds weird I know, but I’m obsessed. Just because someone likes wearing makeup doesn’t mean they have a low self-esteem or they’re trying to impress someone.

I remember I did my friend’s makeup and she doesn’t usually wear that much. and when she went to work people were like ooh who are you trying to impress? And it’s like no one, why does she have to be trying to impress anyone? If she wants to wear more makeup today, she can and it doesn’t have to be for any particular reason. This notion that if we look put together or have a cute outfit on we must have to be doing it for a certain reason, but maybe we’re just that fierce every day for no particular reason, but because we’re doing it for ourselves and no one else.

So wear all the makeup you want to girl whether that be all the makeup under the sun or not a stitch of it at all! Wear that cute skirt and some heels or sweats and your fav t-shirt. Just do you, look the way you want to and if you wanna get all dolled up for no reason do it! Idk what brought on my lil rant but I just wanted to put this out there. ‘Til next time lovelies

xoxo

-Maria

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Hey Naysayers!

I mean I don’t think there’s really any arguments about the journey of your twenties not being important. I I think every stage in your life holds importance, but the twenties seem to be the time are where everything sort of begins….

I think it’s a special time because you’re not too young to do things anymore and you’re not too old either it’s just the right time. It’s a time of learning and growing and making mistakes; it’s the time to really live life. Not that this all ends when you’re not in your twenties but your twenties are just the beginning. That’s really all I have to say about that, so you should probably just likeee read my blog, ok thanks! Til next time

xoxo

-Maria 🙂

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Tha Tha Theories

In trying to connect a theory discussed in class to my blogging experience, it’s pretty difficult. I don’t really feel like any of them apply really because I feel like I’m just like talking to the abyss when I post posts. I don’t really try to be anything I’m not, so perhaps the theory that best coincides with my blog is social identity.

The roles I feel I possess: friend, sister, daughter, student, free-spirit, etc. are apart of who I am so they naturally just help me determine the types of things I post. Everything I’ve posted has I think been a small extension of me; things I can relate to, things I think others my age can relate to, and honest observations I’ve made. Maybe that fits under the social identity theory?

Til next time ❤

xoxo

-Maria